The “Heartless” rapper made that abundantly clear on Thursday with a five-minute video he dubbed “Thanksgiving Prayer ?.” The video shows a choir donning what appears to be black hoodies while singing in a dimly lit warehouse, with guests sitting in chairs at a distance as they soak it all in.
Kanye doesn’t appear in the video but you can hear his voice and feel his raw emotions as he touches on a slew of subjects. Ye owns up to past mistakes he says he’s made, from embarrassing Kim and his family after running for president to allowing his excessive drinking to trigger a fiery temper.
But if Kanye’s prayer had an overarching theme it’s that he wants back in with Kim.
“All I think about every day is how I get my family back together and how I heal the pain that I’ve caused,” he said. “I take accountability for my actions. New word alert: misactions. The one thing that all my successes and failures have in common is me.”
Kanye said he would drink “to take the stress away and knock the edge off,” but it came at a cost.
“Drinking affected my health and the health of people around me because I already had a hair trigger temper and this just heightened it,” he explained. “I went into a manic episode in 2016 and I was placed under heavy medication. Since then, I went on and off the medication, which left me susceptible to other episodes, which my wife and family and fans have had to endure.”
As for putting the family in a vulnerable position following his failed presidential bid, Ye said, “Good Lord my wife did not like me wearing the red hat. Being a good wife she just wanted to protect me and our family.”
He added, “I made me and our family a target by not aligning with Hollywood’s political stance, and that was hard for our marriage. Then, I ran for president without proper preparation and no allies on either side. I embarrassed my wife in the way that I presented information about our family during the one, and thank God only, press conference.”
Kanye ended the prayer with, “This Thanksgiving, I’m thankful for the family that my wife has given me. I’m thankful for the life that God has given me. And I’m thankful for your time, attention and patience. In Jesus name, amen.”
Kanye’s prayer came just one day after he opened up in a similar fashion while attending the Los Angeles Mission’s Annual Thanksgiving event in Skid Row.